Challenge over.

I finished!!!

7 Days of vegan/carb free living. and I have to say I felt GREAT! I was sleeping better and I had more energy. The toughest day was by far Saturday. A good friend, lets call him ‘Archie’ texts me early in the morning, and tells me that hes coming to visit. So he spends the day drinking while I work. I was just watching the clock, I wanted to drink SOOOO bad with him. So I finished work at about 5:30, then at 6 on the nose I started drinking. And continued to drink.

Needless to say,  Saturday night is somewhat fuzzy. I do remember having a Chimichanga at the Mexican bar in the next town, and talking to the band that was playing. Then its all hazy. *LESSON: If you want to get HAMMERED super easy, go on a week long cleanse* it was a fun night though, apparently I was really funny when I came back to the house.

My hangover was epic. I felt like a tree was growing out of my forehead. I went into work yesterday and wanted to curl up in a ball and cry. But I got through it, thankfully. Archie’s hangover was WAY worse, which made me happy not gonna lie. He still looked hot as hell though. My co-worker got his hands on my ultimate favourite hangover food, ‘BBQ Chicken Poutine’ and made me the happiest.

So to cap of my challenge/weekend hangover Im going to finish off with a few lessons I’ve learnt:

  1. Vegan food is actually SUPER delish
  2. I could if need be, live on dried mangos and cashews
  3. Being the sober one at a bar SUCKS!
  4. There is something awesome about doing a personal challenge
  5. Downing a friends beer between vodka 7’s will not usually end well
  6. Leeks arent as intimidating to cook with as I thought
  7. The only thing I really miss when on a vegan diet is Cheese
  8. Its SUPER easy to become a waste case when you havent drank in a week.

So the challenge was a sucess, now I have to find a new one.

Until next time.

– be a river with me


update 2

Still going strong,

Did a 13hr day at work today and that kinda sucked.  I really need to step up the water tomorrow  for sure.

I made 3 different kinds of soup yesterday, which was AWESOME! It was the only day so far where I went to bed full. Also realized that I love roasted cabbage. I made 6 Veggie (White Potato, Sweet Potato, Leek, Celery, White Onion, Carrot and lots of dill….mmmmm dill), Double Potato (White Potato, Sweet Potato, Leek, White Onion, Carrot, Hemp Seeds and Pistashios) and  Potato Onion and Leek. All vegan and SOOO good.

One of my roommates came home in the middle of my cooking spree, and was super interested in what I was making. He seemed a little disapointed that it was vegan, but ate a huge bowl of it. His final critique was “Yeah, its pretty good soup” coming from him, thats pretty good.  I took some ‘Mash Up’  (I ran out of containers so I had to combine the last laddle of each kind of soup) to work today and had one of my friends (who god bless him is brutally honest) taste it. Being a spice fiend, his comment was “Thats really good, you cant even tell that its vegan! It needs spice though, for me, not for you, its perfect for you”.  I was super stoked about there positive comments, coming from 2 guys who are INCREDABLY opinionated it was a nice ego boost.

The soup at work was good, and way more filling then I thought it would be. I just had some strawberries and cashews with dried Mango…(i cant go without my mangos…..mmmmmmmmm mangos) and am totally full.

I just checked my phone, its 1:11am MST. I’m now closer to finishing the challenge then I am to starting. which is kinda awesome.

2 more days.

until next time,

– be a river with me



Challenge update.

So the challenge has been going well so far. my good friend and fellow blogger ‘Bettylivin’ has now seen my challenge so its real.

So far so good, I will admit that I had some Diet Coke last night, I figured it was ok because in Weight Watchers diet soda is free, its actually less points then juice. So a small addendum was made to the rules, I will allow myself to have Diet Sodas.

So Sunday I had a delightful brunch of Mangos and Grapes, my work snack was an awesome plate of steamed veggies (white asparagus, cauliflower and red bell peppers), then my “dinner” was 2 stalks of celery and some pineapple rings. I had plenty of green tea, coffee and water through the day.

This morning I had Apple Slices with Warm Apple Agavee Hemp Puree (100 organic apple butter {which is really just slow cooked apples, there is no actual butter involved} with agavee and hemp seeds) and coffee for breakfast, it was actually really good! Theres a really good chance that this little invention will make it into my post-challenge diet.   Which makes me happy because my go-to post bar snack is Apples, Peanut Butter and Cheese. Even though PB is one of my top 5 favorite foods, it may be replaced by W.A.A.P (yeah I acronym’d it).I did a little comparison and: One Tablespoon Eden 100% Organic Apple Butter= 20 Calories (0 from Fat) and 4 g’s of Carbs, and is 0 Weight Watchers Points where as One Tablespoon of Kraft Chunky Peanut Butter (my usual go to) = 90 Calories (72 from Fat) and 3g’s of Carbs and is 2 Weight Watchers points. Numbers dont lie;  Apple Butter wins

The no alchol isnt as hard as I thought it would be. I didn’t have my usual after work drinks yesterday or Saturday. I’m pretty sure that one of my co-workers now thinks I’m preggers though. Which I am most definitly not. I just hit a good few days when none of the house is drinking, which is kind of weird because the 3 of us do enjoy having some drinks together (I should point out that I live with 2 amazing guys who can drink most people I know under the table.) So thanks karma!

Thats all I got for now, just figured an update would be a good way to distract me from the Burger King commercials.

Until next time,

-be a river with me

challenge…. accepted

So one of my new years resolutions was a very vague “be healthier” which after a few days I realized that I was setting myself up for failure, I needed to be specific to be successful. So I started the year with “don’t eat fried foods”. To be perfectly honest, that lasted about 3 days (hangover food did me in). So since then I’ve been trying to be a little healthier, and have had some success but honestly not much.

A few days ago a few of us were talking about cleanses and fasts, and I was inspired. So yesterday I decided to try a liquid diet for 24 hours. I ate at about 8 last night and then just had water/coffee or vitamin water until about 11 today (I started work at 7, it’s not like I slept till 11) So I felt pretty good, then broke and had a handful of cashews, and a bowl of French Onion soup, and instantly felt guilty. I realized that 13 hours without solid foods was pretty good. It was at least a start.

So now, the new challenge I’ve decided to give myself; I am only going to eat Fruits and Veggies. I don’t want to say a Raw Food Diet, because I happen to love steamed veggies.

Then I started to think about what I would drink, would I let myself have tea? or coffee? (I’m a self admitted caffeine addict but I drink it black so I wouldn’t have to worry about sugar or milk) what about juice? So after some pondering, I determined my guidelines for my self challenge:  7 Days eating only Fruits and vegetables (steamed or raw), Coffee and Tea are ok, No booze (which might be the hardest part of this), no soda or juice, Nuts and seeds are ok if they are plain. So essentially vegan but no grains either.

Now that it’s on the internet, I have to stay true to it.  I have the distinct feeling that this isn’t going to be easy, but lets face it, nothing worth doing is easy.  So, its 5:40pm MST on January 21st 2012, in 20 minutes I will begin my challenge.

fingers crossed.

until next time.

-be a river with me.

rock out (faux literati and One Tree Hill)

The other day at work a co-worker and I got into a disscussion about quotes. Ones that mean something to us. Now the co-worker I was talking to is an amazing person, but lacks a certain depth.

I’m entirley sure that she’s never read anything of her own volition, rather she sees what other people are reading. Her ex-fiancee was a pertentious ass who thought that Heminway was the epitomy of liturature, and would scoff at mentions of other influental authors like John Steinbeck, Harper Lee, Jack Kerouc, Albert Camus, Kurt Vonnegut, Jr, Ayn Rand, Margret Atwood, the list goes on and on. So he “turned her” on to Hemigway and the Brownings, (whom she whole-heartedly believes are brother and sister, FACT: Robert Browning and Elizabeth Barrett Browning are actually husband and wife). I just checked her facebook to see  what she listed as her favourtie books, then checked mine to see if they look lame or not, I dont think they do, ( Why We Suck by Denis Leary, Of Mice and Men by Steinbeck, On the Road, Water for Elephants, Stories I Only Tell My Friends, Catcher In the Rye, The Picture of Dorian Gray, Profiles in Courage, The Audacity of Hope, The Day Kennedy Was Shot, Palo Alto Stories, A Thousand Days, and Last Words).

I dont want to come off as a literary snob by any means, I will admit that I own the Twlight serise (and LOVED everyone) and the last book I read was a Nicholas Sparks book. I just think if you boast being an English major, and your douche bag of a fiancee “reads alot” (his definition of reading was “open book, sit in public place and begin reading it, then take unfinished book to partys so you have a talking point), don’t feed me some bullshit line that your “re-reading some Hemingway” or “you should really pick up a copy of Whitman poems”. Guess what.  I was reading Whitman when Chad Micheal Murray said something about it in One Tree Hill.

One Tree Hill. theres something I can go on for awhile about. I will admit it, I am a OTH junkie. I have been late for meetings because I was watching old episodes, I cried when Keith died, I cheered when Lucas picked Peyton and yeah, I even watch it since CMM and Hilarie Burton left.  One Tree Hill has actually morphed into this weird inspiration point for me. It for alot of years the epicenter of my grown up musical trails, any song that was in an episode, I downloaded (legally), I wanted to get some of the lyrics as tattoos,  I looked up artists that were on the show (how I fell in love with Fall Out Boy), and I even bought a gutair in a vain hope to be a part of some  version of the ‘Hayley gets discovered in a cafe and tours the country’ plotline.

I fell in love with the OTH music, Mark Schwan (the creator) even said in an interview “The music is like a character, it plays as big of a role as any of the leads” and it does. I also loved the quotes that OTH gave me (im a HUGE lover of quotes, thats a whole other blog) Which is how this OTH rant ties into the  begining of the blog. For the first 6 or so seasons, the show opened with a voice over or closed with a voice over that was incredibly poignat and fitting to the theme of the episode. I fell in love with these words, I wrote them on my bedroom wall. I used them as openings to papers in university, I read the books that they quoted. Its because of OTH that I read Ida Scott Taylor, William Albert Camus, and Georeg Bernard Shaw. And why I read more Steinbeck and Ralph Waldo Emerson.

OTH opened my eyes to the wonders of new music, new literature and new ways to look at life. This entire rant is really just to say, OPEN YOUR MIND! DONT JUST LISTEN TO THE PEOPLE THAT THINK THERE SMARTER THEN YOU BECAUSE THEY READ HEMINGWAY! FIND YOUR OWN INSPIRATION! I FOUND MINE IN ONE TREE HILL AND YOU CAN FIND YOURS!!!

until next time

-be a river with me

be a river with me.

“be a river with me, be the storm, the bend in the path, the front porch, the heat in the south, be a boot full of bango strings, a fistfull of written songs, a mouthfull of chocolate dust”- Anis Mogjani.

By some cosmic lottery, I was lucky enough to be born when I was, where I was. I am a 20-something who is a proud Canadian. I love what I love and refuse to apologize for it, namely in the arts world. Music, poetry, history… i love it all. I give major cudos to anyone who creates something puts it out into the world to lets face it, be un mercilessly judged and critiqued.  So for my first blog, Im going to put myself out there, not as freely or as openly as some, but a start is a start right?

Music is my life blood. Someone, (i think Tennessee Williams) wrote, “in memory everything seems to happens to music” i know it does for me, i cant tell you what I was wearing at my grandmas’ funeral when I was 9, but I can tell you how i felt when ‘On Eagles Wings’ played through the church. Or what I was wearing the first time I realized I knew all the words to a song (Jack and Diane- John Mellencamp) or what the weather was like when I first made out with a guy to Eric Clapton (god bless Layla). But I can tell you how amazing each of those moments felt, like I was invincible, nothing could touch me. So theres a REALLY good chance that this blog will become both a pulpit for me to try to get people to listen to music that I love and has changed my life, as well as a place for people to share new music with me, I want to hear the hidden gems that make someone else smile.

Poetry has become more and more important to me in the last 5 years. Theres just something so pure, so honest about putting all of your feelings out there in a poem. I moved to a new province about 3 years ago and of the countless things I have learnt and been introduced to, slam poetry is one of the most lasting (although the awesomeness of a Rootbeer Paralyzer is a close second). A good friend, who in many ways is my own Jiminy Cricket of Art, introduced me to Anis Mogjani one day, and it changed my life. Anis’s words resonate with me in a way that no one else does, his words are my blogs’ namesake. In fact, one of his poems is why im doing the whole  blog thing.

History is my true passion, given the choice between a Kennedy book and a new CD, I’d have a tough choice.  History has been a constant to me in the past 10 years, peticularly, my penchant for Current History, I know thats an oxymoron. I’ll explain more about that term in a future post, but for now let me leave you with this quote from a CNN press release the day President Obama was innagurated: “There is a moment, a simple moment, before history gets recorded. Before it goes in the books. Before it appears as a question on a game show. Or on a midterm exam. A moment right before the headline is written. There is a moment when history lives in the present. When we can watch it unfold in real time, right before our eyes. And we can all assume our place in it. Some people live for history. We live for the moment just before.”

i live for the moment just before. i live for me.

until next time,

Be a River with me.